Mediums That Scare Me

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Not that kind of medium.

I’ve been watching the World Cup, emailing cheers with friends in the Netherlands and texting anxiety with friends here at home.

The recent US-Belgium game got me thinking of the summer I was an exchange student in Bruges. I had a great time and suddenly, despite the heartbreak loss, I wanted to reach out to my host sister. We’d lost contact fairly soon after my return…nearly twenty years ago. I found her online (God bless the internet). Then I got cold feet. I had her email, but what did I say?

Letters do that me. Cards do that to me. Any sort of well wishing (the signable frame at weddings, a friend’s cast, you name it) does that to me.

I panic. I want to get the words and sentiment just right.

I can write chapters upon chapters about characters spiraling into insanity or contemplating a revenge murder, but a little “hey, how are you” or “best wishes on this next great adventure” paralyzes me.

Yes, I realize that it’s what’s behind the writing rather than the medium itself that’s tripping me up, but it’s still frustrating. The card is so small. An email is so casual.

I suppose a blank page is a blank page no matter what.


I’m posting early because: Hup Holland!


2 thoughts on “Mediums That Scare Me

  1. Had no idea you spent time in Bruges. I spent a few weeks with a family in Belgium in, hmmm, have to think for a moment to figure out what year. Pause. Yikes. It was TWENTY-FOUR years ago. ANYWAYS, since then, I have always thought Belgium is an overlooked country, if you know what I mean. Thanks for writing this post and putting Belgium back on my radar.


    • I am a blogger of many mysteries, Beth! And you are, too…I didn’t realize you stayed with a family there. What city?

      Belgium is a great country. I agree that it’s often overlooked and under appreciated. As my host mother was fond of reminding me, they aren’t really French fries, they’re Belgian fries. One of the world’s greatest culinary creations comes from Belgium and most people don’t even realize it.

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